disappointment is imminent
as the road takes a turn
sacrifices have been made
so much still unsaid
this isn’t a one-way street
i’m taking the backseat
are they going to fade?
regret if i stayed?
it is never easy to be
locked out without a key
trying hard to find
the ties that bind
expectations unfulfilled
go the extra mile i will
after the sun and the rain
nothing left but pain?

let me try to recap my mcd visits this week…
1… sun 0100
2… sun 1130
3… tue 1300
4… thu 0000 & 0100
5… thu 1630
6… fri 0230
i really need to find another place to hang out… but i doubt i will…

i went to two mcd24 outlets in an hour…

the first was in taman sutera… for my coursemate’s birthday celebration… as u can clearly see from the pix… we were all there at midnight…
then at one… i was in the usual mcd24… just for a brief moment though… there had just been another party there too…
at three… i reached home and tried to get back to studying…
at four… i guessed it was time to sleep
at eight… i was clueless about my test… not entirely but mostly….
but hey… at least i had fun :) 

tryin' hard to keep my sanity throughout this silence… so anyway… i have been wastin' my time doin' stuff other than revisin'… which is gonna end up in screwed-up results this time around… havin' drinks in mcd… dream on… night after night… wonder where i'll be tonight… kinda cool that i just woke up awhile ago and already two of my pals have made dinner n supper plans… so in between my outings i had better open my robotics book before the day is over… i actually composed an sms poem today… early in the morning as i was rushing for robotics… a sudden moment of inspiration… and sent it to my friend in kl after typing it out in class itself… hehe… and she said it was real sweet… she must have liked it cos she went on to crap about some stuff… true to her funny self… i have this secret hope that the poem might become popular and end up being forwarded back to me one day ;)

can’t fight these feelings that won’t go away
trying hard to pull myself through the day
as hard as i try to runaway with all my might
there is no place anywhere left for me to hide

the stars twinkle brilliantly up in the sky
can’t escape these thoughts as days go by
wondering when i’ll stop living a lie
hoping i’ll never have to say goodbye

at times life is wicked and i just can’t see the light
a silver lining sometimes isn’t enough
to make some wrongs seem right
whatever life brings
i’ve been through everything
and now i’m on my knees again

at times life’s unfair and you know it’s plain to see
hey god i know i’m just a dot in this world
have you forgot about me?
whatever life brings
i’ve been through everything
and now i’m on my knees again

but i know i must go on
although i hurt i must be strong
because inside i know that many feel this way

children don’t stop dancing
believe you can fly
away…away

am i hiding in the shadows?
forget the pain and forget the sorrows

creed - don’t stop dancing

the only interesting event i saw at the convo fair was the minibike racing… those bikes are really tiny and fast… and they were still racing even though it was past midnight… ironic in a uni where the admin is always so uptight and overzealous in enforcing nonsensical rulings… i'm listenin' to red letters by dc talk… it does bring back some memories… of a time in high school… nothin' particularly interesting though… just realised i haven't kept in touch with a friend for quite some time… is there a rewind button somewhere to take a walk down memory lane?

i skipped the first class of today… and woke up to find that my roomie collected my test paper for me… and what a pleasant surprise… full marks… after four years here i think this is a first… cool… i attended the second class of today… and the lecturer was also distributing our test sheets… despite this test being an open-book one… i literally flunked it… not unexpected though… songs on my current playlist:

youth group - forever young
imogen heap - hide and seek
yellowcard - only one
lostprophets - last train home
lifehouse - everything

what happened to my usual prog rock? :(

a vital book for newbies… most people won’t actually need a whole book i think… :)